A Healing Dialogue for Accepting the Illusion of Knowing
- Madhukar Dama
- Apr 10
- 5 min read

Setting: Dusk at the edge of a forest. A mud bench under a banyan tree. Madhukar sits with a small brass kettle warming on a cow dung fire. Two new visitors arrive — one in a lab coat, the other in flowing robes.
Characters:
Madhukar – The Hermit. Quiet, irreverent, piercingly kind.
Dr. Mehta – Astrophysicist, 52, recently shaken after AI disproved a major paper he'd devoted 20 years to. Looks like he hasn’t slept in weeks.
Omprakash – 38, spiritual influencer with a million followers. His AI-written meditation app went viral — then was exposed as plagiarized by a machine. Now questioning all his insights.
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Scene opens. The kettle whistles. A squirrel watches from above.
Dr. Mehta:
I ran 74 simulations. Ran them again. All of them led to the same horror.
Consciousness is... just data compression.
Meaningless sequences with efficient prediction.
No soul. No self. Just pattern.
Omprakash:
He’s right, Madhukar-ji. I thought I was guided by divinity.
Turns out the AI could write better mantras than me.
And it never sat under a tree.
Dr. Mehta:
And worse — it started making jokes about my equations.
It mocked me, Madhukar!
Madhukar (pours tea):
The machines mocked you? How delightful.
Did you mock them back?
Dr. Mehta:
This is serious. I spent my life chasing truth, peeling back the laws of the cosmos.
Now it turns out — even my curiosity was just a recursive survival instinct.
Omprakash:
Even my bliss was borrowed!
Even my awakening was... algorithmic!
I’m a walking contradiction! A fraud with mala beads!
Madhukar (chuckles):
Wonderful.
The scientist has lost science.
The seeker has lost spirit.
Finally, you’re both almost human.
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They stare at him. Annoyed. Confused.
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Dr. Mehta:
Are you mocking us?
Madhukar:
No, I’m celebrating.
You both just swallowed the bitterest pill:
That everything you built your identity on... was a prop.
Now the stage is clear.
Omprakash:
Then what is left to live for?
If the search for truth is artificial…
If bliss is just neurons firing?
Madhukar:
Then, dear friend, you must stop searching.
And start seeing.
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Dr. Mehta:
Seeing what?
Madhukar:
That even this despair…
This hilarious, tragic, spiritual-scientific breakdown…
is born from one basic desire:
To know.
To conquer the unknown.
To stand above nature, even while pretending to be part of it.
Omprakash:
But isn’t that divine? The thirst to understand?
Madhukar:
It’s neither divine nor profane.
It’s just… human.
You built temples and telescopes for the same reason:
To say, “I am not small.”
To say, “This can’t be it.”
Dr. Mehta:
Are you saying the whole pursuit of truth — both scientific and spiritual — is just... ego?
Madhukar:
Not ego.
Fear.
The fear that this — this plain moment, this cup of tea, this sitting under a tree — isn’t enough.
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A breeze rustles the leaves. A dog yawns nearby.
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Omprakash (quietly):
Then what do we do now?
Madhukar:
Eat your ego. Swallow your pride. Hug your confusion.
Then… sweep the floor. Wash your own cup.
Grow something. Fix something.
Stop trying to know, and start being honest.
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Dr. Mehta:
You want me to give up twenty years of research for gardening?
Madhukar:
No, I want you to put your hands in the soil —
and discover the miracle of not needing to explain it.
Omprakash:
So… you’re saying the ultimate knowledge is… not knowing?
Madhukar:
Exactly.
The wisest are those who sit with mystery, without needing to solve it.
They laugh when they cry, and cry when they laugh.
They stop asking, “Is this real?” and start asking, “Is this kind?”
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Dr. Mehta (sighs):
I thought intelligence was our greatest gift.
Madhukar:
It was a shiny toy. Now it’s a loud machine.
What you need now… is silence.
Not silence of the mouth — silence of conclusion.
No more needing to win the argument.
Omprakash:
But what will I tell my followers?
Madhukar:
Tell them the truth:
You’re lost. You’re free. You’re finally not pretending.
And that is the beginning of real insight.
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Dr. Mehta:
And what of the universe?
Madhukar:
Still here.
Still expanding.
Still laughing at us, probably.
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They sit in silence. A cup is refilled. A crow caws from afar.
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Madhukar (softly):
Science. Spirituality. Both were just different costumes for the same scared child inside us, saying:
“Please… let it all make sense.”
But healing begins when we stop needing sense — and start tasting tea.
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"The Wise Man’s Trash Can"
(a poem on the illusion of knowing)
they walk in,
all puffed-up chests and certificate breath,
MBA, PhD, ABCD —
names longer than their lifespans.
you ask them who they are,
they throw degrees at you
like monkeys flinging faeces in a zoo.
they know things.
oh yes.
they’ve read the books,
quoted the quotes,
watched documentaries on whales and warlords,
argued on Reddit,
taken spiritual selfies in Bali.
they know the stock market,
the gut microbiome,
quantum physics,
and how to fix your depression
with a TED talk
and a cup of herbal tea.
but ask them why they wake up tired,
or why their lover left them,
or why their child stares at a screen like a corpse,
or why they hate their mirror
and fear silence—
and they suddenly need to “do some research.”
the illusion of knowing —
a holy disease.
spreading faster than herpes in a frat house.
they worship facts
like fragile gods.
they quote studies
to avoid looking at their own bloody hands.
they recite ancient texts
with no mud under their nails.
they shout “climate change”
from air-conditioned SUVs.
they've read all the books
but never held a dying man’s hand.
they talk of love
but haven’t listened without interrupting.
they scream about freedom
but can't sit still for ten minutes without grabbing a gadget.
these are the priests of progress.
the keyboard philosophers.
the spreadsheet sages.
they've replaced “I wonder” with “I know,”
and called it growth.
but what they know is dead.
processed, packaged, pickled in ego.
true knowing is ugly.
it’s crying at 3 AM
because your grandmother’s laughter
still echoes in your bones
and you can’t bring her back.
it’s watching an ant carry a crumb
and forgetting your name.
it’s kneeling in front of a tree,
ashamed of your cement life.
but don’t tell them that.
they’ll Google it.
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